Sobriety Month.



Understand. And love.

We’re here. And we care.


I fell off the wagon again. I thought I was smarter now. More matured. Turns out when it comes to alcohol, I still am a sucker for my instincts. Last two weeks, I’ve drinking like my old self again. I genuinely thought I was better now, but not really.

I’ve ignored this blog lately too. I apologize from the bottom of my heart for that too.

I feel like I don’t know myself anymore. I’ve always believed that I am a good person. But right now, I don’t know anymore. I fucked up and I don’t know to fix things. Fuck things, I don’t know what to tell myself anymore. My entire foundation has been shaken and I am on this pile of shit I don’t know how to get back from. I am genuinely hurting.

Four consecutive days of drinking later, with hardly any food inside me at all, I had a major case of alcohol poisoning. 1200 bucks and two IV injections later I am much better now.

You see, it’s okay to fuck up. It’s okay to apologize. But when you’re like me, it’s not. I’ll carry what I did with me all my life. Because I know it’s not me.

It feels good to write again. Also, the blog completed 4 months yesterday. So congratulations to everyone involved.

I am going to do a sobriety month now because it needs to be done.

And I will try my best to fix things.

As always thank you for reading and listening.


-Aitijya Sarkar


Author: Aitijya Sarkar

You know that bright little star next to the moon? The one you've never really noticed for some reason. That's me.

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